The 9th of November 2021

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This was the day I lost the magic in my life.

Smiling now takes a lot of effort and wearing a mask isn't easy anymore.

I find myself utterly disgusted at myself. I can't look into the mirror anymore. In the mirror is an empty soul drifting in the wind of change. 

I am scared. I am afraid. I am lost. 

I am without passion.

I have lost magic.

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